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Saturday, August 30, 2008

I am soooo tired....
I am glad to find food at home! Weeee

SIANNN I forgot about my effects checklist! I totally forgot! Somewhat discipled by Colin, sadddd. I wont forget again.

Ok, not this song again! No Longer I - CCC. I have been listening for this song since monday, thousands of times. NO longer i, it's Christ that lives in me! I went home with Pang Shu Yi, Chek Yeow, FEDORA and Sylvia! LOL. RANDOM.

Alright, i need my beauty sleep otherwise i will be late for runthrough at 11am tomorrow! BYEBYE!

F A B U L O U S L Y.
So in Love with Jesus
2:42 AM

Tuesday, August 26, 2008

Exams over. WOOOH.

It doesn't feel as if exams are over. 26 August is the day i always looked forward to.
The CMSY paper was easy and I know i could do my paper, i know i could at least secure an B for it. I could sense the numbness in me, i studied alot but felt as if i didn't study enough. I can't stop myself to think about the exams. T_____T Everyone was jumping for joy about the last paper after they stepped out of the room, but i don't feel the excitement at all. I was trying to find my own mistakes and when i found out i actually got it right, i still think there are more mistakes. I have no idea whether this is called over-stressed or i studied too much, but i need to get this insecurity inside me by seeking God. Only Jesus can heal my heart. It is a great feeling when a best friend whom i can seek upon and heal my heart.


It's the same as WDS, i wanted the best out of my own abilities. Right from the beginning, i am commited to get A for this subject, i did everything i can to shine, to impress the teacher, to make it as unique as possible, to be indifferent from others. I spent so many time doing photoshop, cropping and cropping, making the image transparent, countless of pictures. That week i totally neglected my ministry. It was an act of folly when i looked back. Perhaps i could have spent lesser time for my website since in the end it doesn't turn out so perfect.

It is kinda scary that i felt i wasn't as on-fire as before. I thought back how i prayed to God daily so faithfully because i want to get daily revelation from God. Even though i don't get revelation from God, i keep telling myself i must keep being faithful and He will be faithful to me. After all the projects and everything, QT is not my daily basis anymore, i am struggling for God's presence during service, sometimes i don't even feel like going for service. It was tough, really tough. I don't know what had happened to me, God seemed like just in front of me, so close to me, but yet so far, i was the one who make the distance between me and my God so far. So near but yet so far. Terrible feeling.

This morning i felt so bad about myself because i prayed for my own supplement, i prayed for my exams. i felt i am worse than a Sunday Christian. I can do so much better for my ministry. Just now when i was on the phone with my leader, she told me she heard how i didn't do well for my ministry. I thought i could get over this matter but i didn't in the first place. I know i know. i am really remorseful about that matter. I sabotaged many people T__T Don't mistook me, i am not being sarcastic about it, i was so ashamed about it. Seeing new crews doing better than me made me feel worse. They know what are their deadlines. What about me? I could have easily ruined the whole service there isn't checkthrough. Self-centered. I know what it means now.

I need to stay strong in God despite these problems and tests!

F A B U L O U S L Y.
So in Love with Jesus
10:54 PM

Thursday, August 21, 2008

We studied at admin area today. Haha. Chiwen joined too. She seemed more stressed and broke her pen, as in not into half, but broke part of the pen. LOL. Started from 5pm onwards to 7pm and ate blueberry muffin. ^^ I realised i ate a lot of junk food this few days, plus my fav cookies! Talking about cookie, i got one more double chocolate cookie in my bag! And Jerald Yam still owed me Famous Amos birthday cake, and he self proclaimed to Alvin that i need to buy him one for his birthday as well.

Oh, why am i out of topic? Anyway, we studied from 8pm to 10.30pm. Hoho. This is madness, i cant imagine myself doing this for the next couple of months. I will go mad, thank God i am not. Tomorrow will be another study day, 8hrs, perhaps not really 8hrs, but 6.5hrs.
HAHAHAHAHA.

Me and sylvia was thinking of what if a person do 80hrs a week? Then he will need to complete 16 hrs a day. That will be 6hrs of sleep, 1 hr for eating, 1 hr of going insane.

i need to finish another 1 hr before i sleep. I will see whether my eyes are still open. :D

F A B U L O U S L Y.
So in Love with Jesus
12:49 AM

Wednesday, August 20, 2008

I went to church after CMSY revision Lec. I played IQ cars. A game that need IQ. i couldn't do level 42! So sad. Lols.

I am going to study from 5-10pm tmr. Seriously, mugging. Sylvia and I aimed to complete 25hrs this week! Whooo! If i still don't get A for CMSY and CMATHS, i am so going to kill myself. Plus thursday i am going to study from 2-10pm. That's a crazy idea.

I spent so much money today. Ate Maki sushi today at orchard with chermaine, salmon was fresh and delicious! Yummy! We went to buy COPIC at Art Friend. Hahas. I havent finish Visual Lit. Howwwww? AHHHHHHHHHHH

Sleeping soon, going for Power House tomorrow ^^ nites.

F A B U L O U S L Y.
So in Love with Jesus
12:30 AM

Tuesday, August 19, 2008

WOOOOTS!

Yesterday was FUN! LOLS. 
I went for morning prayer meeting yesterday and prayed, 7am-8am. Joo yu and i went up to MPR 1 to sleep, guess what, only 2 of us sleeping the entire MPR! HAHA. We slept from 9plus to 12! (Joo Yu slept more than that!) 

This time must get distinction for exams, Colin said i must get, actually i was the one who promise him. If i don't get A, i really die. LOL. Must get A! 

We took train to Bishan after we bought bubble tea! We ate Cafe Cartel!!! Haha, it was incredibly cheap, $5.50 with GST for burger+fries+BREAD! Lol. We spent from 5pm to 9.30pm studying. I never studied so much before, haha. We wanted to buy cakes at half price at 9pm, then something happened. 2 RGS came in to buy all the cakes, the assistant told Joo yu," They bought all of them." =.=

Life still goes on right?! It's not as if cafe cartel is the only cafe left. We went coffee beans and tea leaves lor! Went up and forth the J8 to find Coffee bean and tea leaves when it is just beside us! Anyway, we ate MUD PIE! YAY! It's the best pie! NICE NICE :D

Sylvia and I took 53 home, we went crazy about study rule. I suggested to study from 2pm to 10pm on one certain day, i think was thursday if i'm not wrong. INSANE RIGHT? 8Hrs a day. Maybe i should aim 40 hrs a week since i have no sch. LOL. I will go nuts about sets, boolean algebra and binary codes. Haha, BINARY NUMBERS! My mind will go 101010101010101010101010101010101010




F A B U L O U S L Y.
So in Love with Jesus
9:53 AM

Friday, August 15, 2008

Recently, i seemed to love my MBP a lot. Really. Perhaps i don't really cherish it a lot last time because i don't use my own money to buy it. But now i really really love my MAC. MACCCC don't die ok. I was super scared when i couldn't on my mac the other day, then i realised it doesn't has battery. Phew. Scary. 

Haha. ok. i got VLit to do. OMGosh. Last day before freedom. YAY.

F A B U L O U S L Y.
So in Love with Jesus
1:22 PM
Photos time!

Ages since i posted! lol! Finally it's over! YAHHHOOO! No more projects for the time being, yay!




      

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F A B U L O U S L Y.
So in Love with Jesus
1:08 PM

Friday, August 01, 2008

WDS! WEB DESIGN! I cant believe i have been doing photoshop for the past 3 and 1/2 hours. I have no idea how i am going to study for CMSY mock exam.

Thank God i didnt "sing" or "scream" in the process of doing WDS. lol. u may not understand, it was the video we watched during WDS lecture, 7 symptoms of being stressed. Today was the last lecture of the semester, i am not sure whether to rejoice or cry. I wished next week will come slowly, because i need to hand in my WDS project and PRSP lab test.


WDS PROJECT? still stuck at homepage.
JAVA assignment 2? Sian.
JAVA 2? Aiyo. cool. lol.
Visual lit? Havent choose song.

F A B U L O U S L Y.
So in Love with Jesus
12:17 AM

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